i look back

i look back
and i'm not there

i look back
and i'm hiding
ashamed

the causes
have been forgotten
the effects
have not

decisions
in the spring
mistakes
in the fall

i look back
and it hurts

i look back
and it's beautiful

i look back
and i fall in love
again
only to realize
that it is not you

i look back
and you are there
as i drawn you

not as you are